Daily Grind (its been awhile)
I hate it when I get like this. The world seems slightly darker than the last time I looked at it. I don’t know what is wrong with me, could possibly just be depression, but that worries me because I haven’t been like this is quite some time.
The times are changing dramaticly, I found gray hairs on my head the other day, and then preceded to act like I never had them to begin with so I plucked them out. Too many things going on at once. Stock market is going down, I have lost all of the (small amount) money I had in there, okay, so maybe I still have 20 or 30 cents left.
I don’t like my job. I start everyday thinking it will get better, and for the first 3 or 4 hours, I try my hardest, then I have no more will power, I just want to leave, I just want to quit that job. I know it is money, and I can’t really complain. Not to mention, I don’t want to go back to where I came from. The land of lossed opportunities, overtime, and suppressed pay wages.
The money, although important, isn’t everything, and I have realized this more and more in the past few weeks. I would rather be making minimum wage and have fun and be challenged at my job than make 3 times that, and hate it.
I know I am getting myself down, but there are things that I can look forward to in the near future. For instance, tomorrow is the 6 month for Erika and me. In the not too distant future I start school again. That not only means classes, but also the paper. That always makes me happy to work there. I only wish I made enough money doing that so that I wouldn’t have to do anything else. I am also looking forward to the camping trip I am planning.
I guess I should just get my ass up and start something. Get myself motivated. If anybody had any suggestions, (or hell, a job interview) they would me much apprecaited. Until I can figure something out, I feel like I am wasting my life at this fucking job.
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